more about friends...
how awful it is when a friend just
isn't being a friend to you
how tragic it is to lose a friend
i fear that in my life i've lost two best friends
and many other friends
in my life
whether it was because we just went different ways
or we were part of different groups
or whatever
the worst however
is when a friend changes.
and just... isn't
a friend anymore
i don't understand it
see one person in particular is on my heart
i love this person to death
but it feels like a lost cause!
like falling in love with a girl you know will never return the love
it's just friendship instead of romance
it hurts
oh yes it hurts
and it's half driving me crazy
i've no clue what insanity it would lead me to if God didn't keep my eyes on himself
how does this happen?
it doesn't make sense
why have you shut yourself off from me?
what did I do?
how can i be a friend back?
friendships take effort from both sides
i suppose it's not a friendship anymore?
maybe i'm just overdramatic
the thing is
this person needs my friend-love
so badly
i am humbled
because you see
i nearly don't want to give it
i want to say
fine.
goodbye.
see how you do without me.
but God says not to do that?
it's easy to love those who love you
and actually
i think it's not too hard to love those who hate you, much of the time
but how hard it is to love the people in between
who just don't get it
i'm nearly sick of the burden
and sick of praying for somebody who doesn't want it
but if i give that up
i am nothing
1 comment:
Hey.(I know I just posted your xanga)
Anyways,
I was looking through your Xanga just on the things you posted on Megan just to find some ways you expressed your feelings for her. I had read a bunch of them before, but now I understand what you were saying and why you were posting them. Thanks for posting them..they do help me to comprehend or sort of describe my feelings. Okay I'll stop attacking you with posts now.
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