self-centeredness

so
i'm back to the working life now.

you know, it sure is easy to complain about it
just like complaining about school.

turns out complaining is just something we do or don't do.
it's not so much based on the circumstances.
you could be in one of the best situations ever sometimes and still find things to complain about because that's just what you're in the habit of doing.

i'm trying not to complain so much.
this summer, for starters.

trying not to have so many excuses.

i would come home last summer after a long day and tell myself i needed a break...
and i feel like i wasted so much time that could have been spent with my family or others.
or at least doing something meaningful or productive.

time to fix that

there's always so much to fix.
which is...
exciting :)

if only God was really always right in front of my eyes...


"I'm Not Ready" by Cool Hand Luke

Every time I read that story again
I wanna run and take the nails out
You remind me that those nails are mine
Once and for all to the end (Hebrews 9:26)

You were speaking to a group last night
You asked someone to lay their pride out
I turned to see who it could be
You were looking me dead in the eye

I’m not ready for this
I’m not ready yet
I’m not ready
For this ending
But it’s not over yet
I’ve been fighting against myself
And I’ve torn myself to pieces
I hear You calling, God, I hear You calling
“Stand up, stand up
And spend yourself for Jesus”

Too long have I been chained
I’m ready Jesus—set me free


"Things Like You" by Sanctus Real

Loving things like you has wrecked my life, made me cry
Loving things like you has made me lose my mind
And I can't figure out why I've been hanging on
To all these things I've tried to leave behind me for so long

And I think it's time to find a better way to live my life
Than loving all those things that keep me wrapped so tight

Everyone wants everyone else's everything
Some time's the more we have the less we really gain
I'm tired of life and all that money has to buy
Get out of my heart, out of my mind, leaving you behind

Loving things like you has left me bruised, black and blue
Loving things like you has made me so confused
And I can't figure out what I've been waiting on
God I can't be living for things I know are wrong

Now I think it's time to write a better chapter in my life
Leaving all those things that keep me wrapped so tight

Why are we obsessed with possessions here on earth?
Go and take a look at the flowers and the birds
God is always taking care of nature's every need
And how much more important in The Father's eyes are we?
I said, how much more important in The Father's eyes are we?
He sees everything