valley of the shadow

i need a quick break.

is this... the first all-nighter i've done in college?
really?

surely not... but i don't remember actually staying up ALL night before, and into the next day.
maybe i've just forgotten?

seems like i normally give myself at least an hour of sleep even at the worst...
what's going on with me?
(insert smile mixed with curious and serious, but not overly so, expression here)

anyways...
maybe i will get a bit of shuteye before it's over... still 3 hours before my test.

i'm not terribly efficient anymore.
the sad thing is i'm more efficient than i am in the middle of the day.

i think it's the pressure.
i need pressure to motivate me.

i think i'm not very self-motivated.
sure i am with some things...
but not most. not many.


erin bought c.s. lewis' space trilogy.
for some unknown reason it's a very unknown set of books he wrote.

i got to read the first one.
it was brilliant.

i can't say much about what it was about and what it meant on here in the event that erin or chelsea or someone else who will be made to read it sees this and i spoil the book.

i love the way he can detach you from religion,
and then challenge you to think about the way you think.

i wish i could always see myself,
and the world,
and God
from such a... pure point of view.
the way He sees it.
the way he created us to see it, i think.


hm...
i guess i'm not so much on the dark side of titan...
but more...
in a shadowed valley with the slow-rising sun blocked, just behind the mountains.


part of "only a shadow" by misty edwards

i know where i came from.
i know where i am going.

my Father, He is God,
and my Maker.
He is my Husband.
eternity is my home.

His name is written on my forehead
and my name is written on the palm of His hand.

He is mine, and i am His.
He is mine, and i am His.

so take my body if you please,
and try,
try and take all of me.

but my soul He keeps.
my soul He keeps.

though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
the Lord,

He is my Shepherd.
He is my Shepherd.

i am my Beloved's and He is mine.
rightly do i love Him, though i walk through the valley of the shadow.