girl power

sorry for the dry spell.
november was a busy month.
in rough ways.
and good ones. :)

its obnoxious being too busy to write.
though... sometimes it's because i choose to be i suppose.

and i did do plenty of thinking...
just never had the time to write it down.
or didn't feel like it at least.


a lot has changed...
i have a big thing or two to write about probably.


in the meantime i've thought of something i wanted to share...

this is mostly directed to the ladies.

god made you to be very powerful i think.
do you realize what you can do to a guy?

don't get me wrong...
men ought to be strong.
not swayed by a woman who leads him astray...

like adam for example.

and yet... look at him.
the serpent didn't go for him.
maybe the fruit looked good...
but he spent plenty of time in the garden without touching it before.

he listened to eve though.
she could convince him to take it.

that's a lot of power.

eve is a bad example of how to use it...
:)


but i DO think that it can be flipped around!

encourage us.
us men that is.

imagine if...
the serpent went for adam.
but eve showed up and turned his head. :)

i heard a funny term in a book i read about a year ago...
it described what it means to be a "godly flirt".
sounds ridiculous right? :)

because the way the world is, flirting is a pretty selfish thing.
it's... just for fun really.

but if you think about it...
there's nothing inherently wrong with it.

imagine using your femininity (that's a silly word)
to bring attention to God.
(rather than to yourself)

it looks very different than worldly flirting from some angles.
but it's the same basic idea.


guys:

this is the kind of girl you want.

when you're down, she cheers you up.
when you're tired, she encourages you to push on.
when you're being selfish, she snaps you out of it.
etc.

why?
because she loves God and you
and wants this for his sake and yours.

how does she do it?
in some sense, the same way a guy friend is there for you.
but if you look at it another way...
she's being the peaceful, beautiful, soft, loving, cute woman that God made her to be.


women:

will you hand us the fruit and say nice things about it?

or will you use everything God put in you to turn our focus and dependence where it ought to be?

you can really catch our attention sometimes.
and there's a lot of potential to use that to display godliness
and to encourage the same in us.


guys:

look for the kind of girl who uses everything in herself to [intentionally] help you keep your gaze where you want it to be.


does this make sense?
thoughts?
i feel like this is tough to explain,
[and maybe dangerous if taken the wrong way :(]
so tell me if you have comments or questions. :)

preparation

as i struggle through a difficult week or two...

that is,
difficult in many ways:
school, work, God, life in general...
you get the idea.

as i struggle through a difficult week, i cannot help but think over and over about the future.
about my wife and my children especially.
(both of which i at least imagine having one day)

and i cannot help but think about how
good
i want to be for them.

about how i want to be a good leader, and a good lover, and a good example, and so on...

and as i struggle through a difficult week...
i see how i am not this man.

it drives me nuts.
it has been driving me nuts for the last many months really, but its times like this that it really comes out.

and don't misunderstand me...
i don't expect myself to be the perfect man.
well... at least i try not to expect that. :)

i realize that i need to focus on being faithful to God.
and faithful to them.
and that he will take care of the rest...

but
i desire to be as good as i can for them.
God will use me, no matter whether i am weak or strong.
but for his sake and theirs...
i want to be stronger.

not a man barely clinging to God, and holding them back.
but a man boldly leading them and loving them as best as God makes it possible.

see?

and as i struggle through a difficult week,
i cannot help but be frustrated by how
weak
and unprepared
i am.

how will i ever become that?


...i also know i should not dwell on the future.
two things are important:
now.
and eternity.

as i struggle through a difficult week,
like this,
how do i love and lead the people who are around me
now?

this is what is important...

i'm sorry i'm not doing a good job of this folks.
most of you don't even know it.
i apologize anyways.

i'm...
trying to try harder...

...well...
i'm in the middle of a lab report and it's already 3:30 in the morning. so i'm going to go back to it now.

i think that's all...
my head has been a mess..
so while this little glob of thoughts made sense for a few moments i had to get it out.
:)