patience

God grant me peace...

i've had so much studying and german essay writing to do this weekend...

i'm not in the mood
but "do everything without arguing or complaining," right? :)

oh wow
this font's parenthesis are perfect for smilies
anyways

what i have been in the mood to do is be with people
talk to people
love people
teach people

people at school who i don't have much time left to be with for a full month
and people at home who i'm overjoyed to spend time with soon now

i'm looking forward to the break so very much

and yet
i'm stuck
here

studying for exams
and writing this darn essay

i'm doing a rather awful job of it too

there are more productive forms of procrastination :)
like spending time with God randomly
or walking back all the way to campus after church to spend time with people
or reading the Bible in german

and less productive forms
like facebook
or wookiepedia (probably my favorite website by the way, you can go there when you're done reading this)
...I was about to model a 3D lightsaber on the computer...

but I'm always drawn back to the fact that...
I do indeed need to be studying

i'm tired of it
i'm ready for the semester to be over

however
this
is where God has me.
this is where i need to be now

we need to learn how to do what he says when he says it
we christians want him to be in control
and yet when he tells us what to do so plainly but we don't like it... we're quick to forget that we asked this upon ourselves :)

i for one need patience
to keep my head in the game.
to keep my priorities in line with God's desires
and not my own.

okay so...
time to stop procrastinating again ;)